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RE Words
Rekindle |
Remake |
Remodel |
Renew |
Repair |
Restore |
Resurrect |
Revamp |
Don’t we all want to be reaffirmed? Especially after a difficult time where we have failed ourselves, disappointed others, and lost hope! I experienced that and more after my brain tumor surgery. After the surgery I noticed that I could no longer see out of my left eye. I also had lost my sense of smell. As my family gathered around me, I surprised myself by saying, “I am sorry you have to see me like this.” And I started crying as said it. It was rough. Then came the 30 days in the hospital learning to walk, shower and get to the bathroom. My thoughts that after the surgery, if I lived and the surgery was successful, I would begin healing and become my old self again. No. Not at all. Once I was home, I tried to resume jogging again. I tried for an entire year. I never got too far, and my pace was slower than a fast-paced walk. I tried playing tennis. I tried shooting baskets. I even gave skiing a try. Driving would overwhelm me, and I would get outraged when someone cut me off. I realized I had lost my ability to control my emotions and my ability to walk them back down. I think one doctor said something about learning how to live from my amygdala. Fight or flight. Always filled with Angst. Easily agitated. I could say more but you can see that I was in a condition that I started this paragraph with. I was reading God’s Word and praying constantly. It was the ONLY thing that I could still do. All that remained of the old Erv. That is when I started praying for God to reaffirm me. My family and others had tried to reaffirm me, but I needed to hear it from God.
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